Day 31

A resident passed away over the weekend - the first in awhile. It’s the woman I fed on my very first day, who told me about the grand experiment. I never got to know her well, because her condition started to decline soon after. She fought for a long time, even making it to the green floor, but I guess in the end it was enough for her. I hope she’s at peace.
More cleaning and moving on the floors today, as rooms are prepared to receive new admissions. A long, sad procession of empty wheelchairs files down the hallway and out the front door.

 Day 32

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